Creating Space

So my goal for this year is to create a personal space that is uniquely my own. A personal space that has richness and brings me happiness. A close friendship, a sacred pasttime, a place to be myself that is not filled with my family's needs.

Family... it's the most wonderful concept in the world and at the same time, can be stifling. We are defined by our families. They make us who we are and they make that identity persist even when we want to change and break free. There are pieces of us caught inside our mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, children. Miniature replicas of parts of us. There's no way to escape that constant reflection of the self. And there's no way to choose them or not choose them - they are there, for better or worse.

Lately, I find myself searching for something outside myself, outside my family, that will provide me the space to grow and change. A place where I'm not haunted by old judgments and harsh reflections. Letting go of pieces of me that dont work and finding new ways to relate to the world. That's what Ive wanted for years. But am I finding the tools to actually achieve it?